In a very unique way that kick came…….
better yet let me call it more of a loving nudge. It completely began to transform not just myself but the entire household. It moved us to begin to analyze and reflect on the things we were surrounding ourselves with in our home for starters. For example, certain dolls/toys/figurines we had on display; clothing with certain patterns, symbols, etc. that had deeper meaning than we had realized we started researching or just sensing something wasn’t right and ridding ourselves of ; sending it straight to the trash.
Purging / home cleansing had begun.
I’ll get back to speaking on my experience with this, but attachments to certain television shows, reality and talk shows and literature (gossip) I started making changes and letting go of. I hadn’t realized it at the time but I had grown “attached and dependent” on some of these things. I even started being moved to just search certain places around the house and there I would find under carpets and in closet corners things that needed to be thrown away. For example, I recall going into one of the children’s rooms and pulling up the area rug, just randomly moved to do so, and finding tons of playing cards that happened to have symbols on them that I had never payed attention to and needed to go.
The more we got rid of and the more….
willingness we showed, the more clear my thinking became. I started to put two and two together, this was why I was going through (what I described in one of my previous posts) feeling so motivated to change and then losing that drive; forgetting things that I felt so passionate about one day and no motivation to carry it out the next.
Now let me make it very clear, these changes were sometimes frustrating to make but what personal changes after years of doing something your way and getting stuck in those ways and habits / cushy comforts isn’t?
The desire for more spiritual things grew, minds and emotions became more balanced and clearer, more peace in the home. I started to be drawn to people in the ministry who had a genuine interest in growing. I started researching more and finding out more as well. But guess what?
Then came the challenges….
see like I said, things had been comfy and cushy. And you know what, I was just where those dark, unseen forces wanted me. Comfy, cushy, sleep and out of their way, how dare I start clearing their filth (as innocent as they make it seem) out of my house. I should have expected the challenges but what I didn’t expect was how quick they would start to try and “blow our house down”….
Side Note: Lesson I learned from that is just because life may seem to be calm, quiet and ideal that doesn’t always mean its just because we are heavily protected and being rewarded. It could also mean we are lulled to sleep and those dark forces want us to stay there…
To be continued……